|Sweet Pea Flower. Nothing to do with this post - just a much-needed uplifting image|
I got an e-mail from my lovely painter friend Annabel Mednick
"Just wondering how you are as you haven't been writing your blog"
She's quite right of course. There are many reasons why I haven't been writing my blog, but mainly because life has been rather overwhelming this year. For many reasons.
2012 has certainly been the year of the bully for me, the year when I have had to learn, or re-learn, how to handle bullies and bullying. It's interesting, having experienced a good deal of bullying throughout my life, much of it from an early age, you would think I would be really great at knowing how to cope with the emotional stress and upset of such behaviour. But somehow the act of bullying can still debilitate my sensitive soul.
It's been a tough one. I had to take a month off work between May and June because of the anxiety and depression that one of my jobs was causing me. Earlier in the year there was all that dreadful negativity and bullying at my allotment.
Teaching gardening and being on my allotment; both things that I love, both things that I would never expect to be tainted by hideous negativity. It is more than disappointing that this year both have been.
Thankfully there is much going on in my life where who I am and what I do is hugely respected and appreciated. This has kept me sane.
The best way to deal with bullies is to expose them. Often this can put you in further danger as the bully may ramp up the behaviour. Nonetheless, this remains the only real way forward.
Now that's off my chest and I'm back in the writing loop I might just keep blogging. I hope so.